Mattie opens up about their college experience this week and unpacks the beginning steps of exploring their gender, feeling extreme pressure to conform at school, and what happened when they first got on social media. They talk about their rollercoaster freshman year, the "do you listen to girl in red?" trend, how they got their first short haircut from a priest, and how coming out on social media for the first time finally helped them find acceptance and community. Trigger Warning: This episode discusses suicide, suicidal ideation, and depression, and some people might find it disturbing. If you or someone you know is suicidal, please contact your physician, go to your local ER, or call the suicide prevention hotline in your country. For the United States, the numbers are as follows: The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 988, or message the Crisis Text Line at 741741. Both programs provide free, confidential support 24/7. Mattie: @westbrouck https://www.instagram.com/westbrouck/ https://www.tiktok.com/@westbrouck Check out Mattie s episode of I m Literally Screaming on @pyb! https://youtu.be/T8ck9S9VJYs Produced by @pyb ABOUT CLOSET TALK Join Mattie Westbrouck as they dive into Closet Talk, where each week they’ll share their intimate personal experiences with growing up, coming out, and embracing their identity. From sharing stories about being closeted in middle school, to mental health struggles in high school, to unpacking the queer experience with guest co-hosts, Mattie creates a space for the community to feel seen.

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